i seriously SERIOUSLY do not understand how some people can be so thick-skinned. calling me 8 times on a Sunday to ask me to give you a lift to school is not a joke. and i have not exaggerated. 4 calls with handphone, 2 on house phone, 2 on an unkown number expecting me to pick up just because i don't recognize the number. not forgetting 2 sms-es and 2 msn messages (despite me being offline).

firstly. monday is my longest and most draining day in school. i like to go at whatever time i'm comfortable of waking up at. e.g. if i have work to rush tonight and sleep super late. because of that there's no way i can say exactly what time i'm going to school. even if i wake up at 8:15am, rush and end up slightly late for my 8:30am class, it should not be anyone's business (except at the most maybe my lecturer's and my team mates' - but we do already have a mutual agreement going on). because i have a jam-packed day without break till 5:30pm.

secondly. some people just aren't the most appreciative/deserving. take for instance, sitting in my car and cursing me of getting into an accident isn't at all welcome. for obvious reasons any decent, sane human being would easily understand. not to mention asking to be dropped off at a destination that's simply out of the way and when i'm not exactly early for lesson, even though it's on the same campus, it's not that small either.

tired of people. maybe it's because i've been too nice that's why everyone is bullying me. but believe me, that's changing...people around me would know. i'm tired of being stepped all over. really. good night.

it's great when there's no expectations, even when you lose, there's nothing to lose.

so much for fun.

think people might think i'm schizo or something. "why so shocked?" (no reference to "why so serious"). yeah i guess there are things i don't mention, but doesn't mean i'm not. but just push on and you'll start seeing the contradictions. then you'll just be confused again. but actually it's simpler than it seems.

anyway...work is picking up and i'm quite desperate not to drown this semester. so...if i disappear from all existance, it's probably resulting from my laziness. afterall, laziness has to appear somewhere somehow.

have fun guys. good night.

(nope i'm not sure of what i'm talking about either)

i think in the past week i've heard the phrase "next time when you guys are qualified engineers" more times than i have in my entire school life here. it's all mounting up to the end. and it isn't excatly very appealing when it seems rather beak and uncertain.

on another topic. there are some people who will always be there for others 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. you know what these people are called?
Ans: suckers.
oh yeah. my time for that is over. i'm done with this man...

my FYP has started. i wouldn't say my hell has started but i do forsee impending madness in the not too distant future. and i have this big pile of journals and books to read. and design and conduct a test rig to get started on my experiments.

and so begins the start of the end.
hopefully it'll turn out to be better
than i thought it's going to be.

been having headaches for the past 2 days. on the scale uncle doc asked me to do...yesterday's was a 10 and today's is around a 7 to 7.5. at least i know i don't have an tumor in my head because i have had an MRI after all. but it doesn't mean it hurts any less.

anyway let's just say...i need to put some order back into my life.