for the well-being of my brain, after tomorrow i don't want to see another circuit for as long as i live. i know it's quite impossible but who knows. in a way i dread that there'll be 2 papers tomorrow. it's going to be a long-drawn battle but whatever it is, i have to take both seriously. as much as they may be my favourite subjects, they're definitely not my favourite topics...but the battle must still be fought. i won't dare to think/expect any grades till i see the papers tomorrow. but i will promise myself that no matter how well/badly they go, i will take a break and relax tomorrow evening (like i haven't done enough of that)...but i think many of my brain cells will be sacrificed tomorrow.

ok, i'm going to try to finish 11 and 12. then go back to fraunhoffer and derivation of the lens stuff. i wonder what time i'll be done. or will i ever finish? argh...

yet after tomorrow, my life will be very twisted cos what's left will be chem and accounting. it's a good thing in the sense it's marking the end though not very near, it's still THE END...better than a never ending torture spree, but those 2 subjects are the bane of my life currently and i can find my chem text at the BOTTOM of the pile of study-stuff....so imagine when i last touched anything to do with chem. accounting isn't even in sight, i have to go dig it out from my bookshelf.

i wonder what will happen, i wonder what kind of results i will get this time. it's so darn unpredictable. i'm just worried that it'll be worse than what i view as the lousiest i 'can afford' to do. i don't wish that this moment of slack-ish behaviour will ruin my dreams of going to that prestigious place. and i was still playing catch up. sigh...'nuff talking. good luck to me tomorrow...not only do i need inspiration, i need STAMINA. 9am to 4pm is seriously no joke...and definitely isn't funny.