i'm suffering from a neuro-hull-breach. computing should not be tested or learnt in this way. i can really feel my brain swelling up from all the stupid coding and values i have to remember, which by the way have little if not NO resemblence to the english language, when in real life programmers can always refer back to their materials for the coding if necessary. it's more important to understand the concept and reason behind the syntax...but drats who am i to say anything, i don't hold no phD in computer science/enginering/software programming...i don't even hold a darn phD lah. sigh.

it's no use to say i'm seriously lagging behind time. because most would say they believe while they may or may not...while others who believe are definitely not able to do anything about it. i got to start on electro-magneto-blah-blah-crap the moment i come home tomorrow, not forgetting there's EG at night. i don't want my physics results to be screwed...even if the rest are (although i REALLY HOPE THEY'RE NOT, but the chances are slim and i shall be honest and realistic).

i constantly wonder what happened to me this semester such that i have lost all motivation whatsoever to get stuff done and get stuff into my brain. argh, let's hope things go back to normal next sem...i'm hoping that my formal specialisation being confirmed and covered will actually bring out some spark of brilliance. ya dream on i know...