i feel that i should be much more selfish...everywhere i turn, i feel i'm not good enough. aiyah...not like it's something new. whatever. i don't think this exam is going to be a good thing. but it's not that i lack time, i lack spirit. hate self-battles.

first time i jammed till i injured my hand. my left hand is injured now, thanks to non-stop bending action. was playing some solo at EG today and halfway thru i felt immense pain shooting through my left hand first finger and nearly dropped my guitar. DC says it's temporary, i think it is, cos it's better now. over-strain...probably goes to show how much time i've spent doing the wrong things.