haven't been feeling ok recently. just tired i guess, but it's quite impossible given that i've not done much. lagging behind in tutorials now...for every single module. how lousy can things get? to make things worse, i haven't got any fantastic tutors this sem. i'm so scared this would be where i stumble. i don't want it to happen...it's only year 1 sem 2...i've got so long more to go! how am i go going to make it through this?
i'm scared my GPA will drop below last sem's. i'm so scared i'll get lost for maths...and not be able to catch up because i cannot understand both lectures and tutorials. it's so tiring to work 100% by yourself...but other than that i can't come up with any other ideas. but it's nearly impossible for someone like me to study maths (of all things) by myself. i'm so scared i won't make it. i don't want my dreams to get dashed cos of this cos it simply isn't worth it.
somehow CNY this year seems to bring with it much misery and fatigue. i can't imagine the number of make-up lessons i'll have after that. it's a traumatising thought. i just want some time out by myself...hopefully pick everything up and manage to relax and get back to business once again. i don't want this to be my biggest screw-up in my university life. i don't want any screw ups for this 4 years...i just want to get my stuff right for once...even if it means being a full-time mugger. but i'm really very tired...at least for now.
yesterday's EG was ok to me...but to the rest it was demoralisingly difficult all the technical exercises. think DC could see how sian-ed everyone was. but he turned out saying it's ok cos we're just there to enjoy ourselves while learning the instrument. guess that's why i like EG so much (many people i know can't understand why). it's the 60 minutes i set aside each week where i really just put in all my effort into something i like and enjoy myself away from the world in the soundproof studio. what else can provide me that?
wish one day i'll be good enough to perform though. sighs. am having some trouble with pull-offs at the moment, hammer-on is alright, but pull-offs just no sound. haha. DC says lack of practice, can i say he's wrong? no...cos he's right...everything in music can be attribute (to various degrees) of lack of practice.
can't wait to start on the new song...One of these Nights by the Eagles. DC doesn't know how to photocopy, he chopped off the title and said it was censored -_-"
but i didn't get the chance today. left house at 8am and came home at 10pm...tomorrow i'm going to work on the song the moment i reach home. oh the long school day is terrible, makes me all depressed...
but ikea trip was nice. had meatballs, chicken wings and ice-cream. jac and jh, stop saying i tempt you lah...cos if you don't want to eat, you won't eat no matter what i say. and i know you all were enjoying the food. bleah!
i'm scared my GPA will drop below last sem's. i'm so scared i'll get lost for maths...and not be able to catch up because i cannot understand both lectures and tutorials. it's so tiring to work 100% by yourself...but other than that i can't come up with any other ideas. but it's nearly impossible for someone like me to study maths (of all things) by myself. i'm so scared i won't make it. i don't want my dreams to get dashed cos of this cos it simply isn't worth it.
somehow CNY this year seems to bring with it much misery and fatigue. i can't imagine the number of make-up lessons i'll have after that. it's a traumatising thought. i just want some time out by myself...hopefully pick everything up and manage to relax and get back to business once again. i don't want this to be my biggest screw-up in my university life. i don't want any screw ups for this 4 years...i just want to get my stuff right for once...even if it means being a full-time mugger. but i'm really very tired...at least for now.
yesterday's EG was ok to me...but to the rest it was demoralisingly difficult all the technical exercises. think DC could see how sian-ed everyone was. but he turned out saying it's ok cos we're just there to enjoy ourselves while learning the instrument. guess that's why i like EG so much (many people i know can't understand why). it's the 60 minutes i set aside each week where i really just put in all my effort into something i like and enjoy myself away from the world in the soundproof studio. what else can provide me that?
wish one day i'll be good enough to perform though. sighs. am having some trouble with pull-offs at the moment, hammer-on is alright, but pull-offs just no sound. haha. DC says lack of practice, can i say he's wrong? no...cos he's right...everything in music can be attribute (to various degrees) of lack of practice.
can't wait to start on the new song...One of these Nights by the Eagles. DC doesn't know how to photocopy, he chopped off the title and said it was censored -_-"
but i didn't get the chance today. left house at 8am and came home at 10pm...tomorrow i'm going to work on the song the moment i reach home. oh the long school day is terrible, makes me all depressed...
but ikea trip was nice. had meatballs, chicken wings and ice-cream. jac and jh, stop saying i tempt you lah...cos if you don't want to eat, you won't eat no matter what i say. and i know you all were enjoying the food. bleah!
Beneath the noise, below the din,
I hear your voice, it's whispering,
in science and in medicine,
I was a stranger, you took me in...
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