"...am i supposed to feel happy?
i think i am, but i don't.

i left with the feeling that i'm never coming back.
the feeling of resignation...
and maybe it won't matter to anyone else but myself
...but of course i'll pretend it doesn't.
yet i don't think so..."

whole world should have seen how kh and i ran from our big boss today. well, the whole office did...if he caught us we would be stuck on site till very very late.

tomorrow's our inspection day. our prof motherly is coming to visit us at site. i need a break. seriously. but i can't take leave...and MC is unpaid. the only thing that's worse than what i'm going thru now is to pay to be tortured. thanks to hj who brought it up today.