i highly suspect the back of my throat has been bleeding for a while now. but i haven't noticed because i haven't talked much and it's not painful unless i talk. and i have been tasting blood for a while, to the extent i don't notice much of it anymore...till i drank nearly the whole bottle of water today and suddenly realised the taste was gone. i think i'm headed for being sick again...this time quite surely, i just wonder when i'm going to lose my voice. hopefully with enough hydration i will be able to make it last till tuesday next week...there's just too many things that need me to be able to talk going on from tomorrow till monday. argh.

sitting at home for entire days at a time is great when it comes to saving cash. went for sushi buffet the other day with 'son and there goes my entire holiday savings. haha...and now i've developed a temporary sushi-o-phobia again.

and given this much free time, can't help but get my brain flooded with thoughts. about various stuff like the impending result disaster (or so i think), and other complicated stufff (i don't know why i'm torturing myself) of course there's the more practical stuff like what/where to eat lunch. wonder whether is it just me or what but i think i need to be less nice and learn how to put my foot down sometimes. unpleasant but necessary i guess. i think i'm being or on the verge of being made use of recently. but i still need time to think about it.

ok off to lunch. wonder if GS is awake. haha...my lunch buddy.