the state of equilibrium. i think my equilibrium is when i'm alone. wonder if one day i'll be able to explain to myself this constant need for myself to be with myself. can just be with all the different people, but ultimately i will just end up not being able to stand it and withdraw into hiding.

i really can't stand being around people too often. it's tiring (?)...i try to talk to others...it's not that i don't like to be with people/don't like people, it's just that i prefer to be alone. so...to the one who knows me well enough, please explain this to me. at least i believe this recess would be a good chance for me to go into hibernation and probably feel better at the end of it all.

in a lot of pressure when i'm with people. insecurities? maybe...but whatever it is, it just feels so draining.

was nearly late for school today. i left my house at 2pm and rushed there for 2:30pm lesson. i made it...but slightly late -- at least i wasn't the latest. lesson was alright...as for the test, i hope i didn't copy the wrong question (but i really think i did). so i'm more or less screwed...GRRRrr. what a nice way to screw up. why can't they just print question? after lesson went to register my calculator and went home...

wanted to go to J8 for a walk...but decided not to and came home instead. for dinner i went to east coast park hawker centre. the food there is AMAZING. i found a place that's actually in the same REALM as chomp chomp!!! woah...i tell you, i ate the oyster omelette and beefball noodles...OH MAN...it was simply so very SHIOK. i can tell you i'll be heading there again soon...oh man oh man oh man...i still can't get over it~ =P