nope i'm not happy. i have issues...with certain things and people. (who am i kidding). things just haven't gone smoothly (not like they often do).

there are too many things i'm not thinking about...and too many things i am thinking about. but we (my brain and i) are getting the priorities mixed up. too many things i should get but simply don't.

then i see people (emphasis placed on "people" i.e. plural) around me who are working harder than they say they are (not that they shouldn't...but that's beside the point) and what's worse is when they simply deny (or maybe don't realise) that they are...sometimes it's not the circumstances or the facts that make me unhappy, but how the things are done/presented/whatever...

the CE people are a fun bunch. but i have this sense of foreboding that i shouldn't expect too much. probably just attend meetings, have fun, do enough...from the way things look right now, the "putting in extra" part will probably not come in. don't know what this reflects of me...but it's one of the least of my concerns. i have other things to worry about.

--betcha no one gets me.

nothing's holding up. wonder if this is the so called stress everyone experiences. aiyah...i doubt so. but i just hope that i'll meet someone i can talk to soon...unload before i go nuts. haha...

really wished SL was around with me for today's material science lecture. the prof said so many funny things (i.e. the stuff that only the both of us would get) but then, i couldn't talk to anyone about it. cos they'd either not get it, or get it only after much explanation (which totally kills the fun) and then say i'm sick (not literally but you know...). oh well...

went to j8 after school today. the entire place was crawling with students doing last minute shopping for we-know-what-event. seesh. i intended to walk around but gave up so just bought my lunch and left. parking cost me slightly less than a dollar which is alright. i was and still am considering buying the file/folder/whatever you call it from OP. well, 'son has the ripcurl one which i think is VERY NICE but it's gone out of stock. grrr. i want one of those files cos somehow i don't like plastic files anymore. and i can just carry that to school with my pen(s) in it. yes even if i'm lazy i don't intend to let others know too easily. heh.

ok quite looking forward to tomorrow, cos there's someone accompanying me to school and i have a lunch mate. yay...oh speaking of whom, wonder how's my 'bus mate' doing -- haven't seen him in a while...yeah maybe i'll drop him an sms tomorrow...

anyways, this is a nice song...the lyrics are quite interestingly somehow...relevant (?)

Song of the Moment: 3 Doors Down - Here By Me

I hope you’re doing fine out there without me
'Cause I'm not doing so good without you
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood
So how could I have been so blind for all these years
I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without
you

And everything I have in this world
And all that I'll ever beIt could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me
I can’t take another day without you
'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long just to hold you
And to be back in your arms where I belong
I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside of your love

And everything I have in this world
All that I'll ever beIt could all fall down around me
Just as long as I have you right here by me