why...why am i here and going looney. must be cos i'm too free when i'm not supposed to be. aiyah. i'm so sleepy yet not sleepy...supposed to be studying yet not studying.

i've learnt Sweet Child O Mine till the first few bars of the solo. think i'm going to learn the rest (i.e. the fast part) when the exams are over. not like i'm studying now...but learning the rest now will ensure that i won't study AT ALL which is the last thing i need.

after jamming, there's this metallic smell on my hands and i like it. the mark(s) of a guitarist. i think my hands look like they've been shreded and i'm proud of it. the sense of touch of my left hand is totally gone. so guitarists are a sadistic bunch. but i still think it's getting more and more fun. the addictive part is when you aim for perfection...and you almost get it...then you say you must do it again cos you'll get it the next time. but you don't then you try again and again and again...but i can feel myself getting better cos now i get stuff faster. like when i learn a rift i master the thing faster. it's shiok-ness ok, cos the tedious part is gone. now just got to master alternate picking and i feel much more confident.

staying at home without B12 pacing me is really bad. oh wells.