i feel it's very difficult for me to re-integrate. never been a sociable person to start with so maybe it just makes things worse. the fact is that even though you know someone for a long long time, once there is a period of separation or distance things will probably never be the same again.

the thing is, i think i am at a point where i think i wouldn't mind leaving everything behind and going somewhere there are no expectations on who i have to be just because that was who i was some time ago.

maybe i should just use my time to catch up with my work instead of trying to think thoughts that i think are great but hold little significance. at least for now.