i'm tired. and feeling a bit sick. woah come to think of it i haven't felt sick in a while...i should just avoid this topic totally...hmm...

today i did nothing once again. getting up in the early evening. this cannot go on! the workload is already so heavy yet i'm so slacky...gosh.

at least i'm more or less done with my stupid chem...EXCEPT electrolysis. the rest i've kind of understood though i've yet to try out the tutorials. intend to do them on monday. yes...i'll be doing them on MONDAY. i.e. i don't or play less EG before class. which is realistically quite impossible. given the fact that i'm me and once i touch my guitar, there's no sign of me putting it down even if there's the biggest of biggest exams the next day. perhaps i should be consoled that i know myself.

as for accounting...think i have no choice but to s/u it. i mean...i don't want to screw my grades over some stupid stuff about ideals etc etc...there has to be a balance man...but i have not decided officially. when the time comes...i'll know? haha...so like real.

let's see...in my haste to get chem done this week i've forgotten that i actually have 7 modules...not 2. i have not touched physics, maths, computing and physics elect. in a WEEK. seesh. i don't want to imagine how rusty my brain will be on monday. eew...

honestly...i've not felt this before. is this stress? i mean...i'm SUPER behind time. perhaps i should be consoled by the fact that at least i AM AWARE of how behind time i am. but like it helps when i can't find much motivation to do anything about it. there definitely has to be a way to improve information input...rite?

had the weirdest dream last night/morning (my time is so screwed up). something to do with my pri school. i guess it's a sign it's about time that i should pay them a visit. i mean...i haven't been back in like years? sigh...it's so not like me. but the teachers i want to see have retired. there are others of course majority of whom didn't teach me. of course i want to see them to...but you know, i really find it sad that once my teachers retire i can't find them anymore...i don't know how to contact them...and i feel bad never having actually thanked them formally before because i didn't know that then would be the last time i would see them...or maybe it wouldn't...but i won't know... ...if you get my point. but of course, once again...IF i can just afford the time. and IF the security uncle would let me in. the last time i went back i was barred...and it makes me feel quite hesitant to even think about going back again. someone help? HJ? he said he got in without problems right? haha...ya as though i can expect help from there...aiyah...see lah. it's a thought i need to keep in mind.